I am fighting to stay open, open like a lake.

Got more medicine from the doctor. Seems to be clearing up. I'll know for sure what it was when my test results come back sometime in the next few days.

Peace Haven is a really cool place. We got to work in the garden, and on a few other projects around the farm. A bunch of us got to go see where the chickens, ducks, and sheep live. We collected the eggs, and fed the sheep. It was a good morning. It was fun, but we also got things done. We had a potluck lunch before we all went home to crash for the afternoon.

Interns minus Matt watched Inglourious Basterds Saturday night. The boys all love it. Griffin says that it is his favorite movie. They quote it all the time. So Erin and I finally caved and agreed to watch it. Erin loved it too. I think I'm the only one that didn't love it. I'm glad I saw it, but I probably won't ever watch it again, and I probably won't ever quote it. I guess I get why people like that kind of stuff, but it's just not really my style. There were some funny parts, but overall, just not my thing.

Sunday we didn't have to arrive until 9:15! Woo! Since school is out for the summer now, we get to keep the crates inside and don't have to bring them in the trailer every week. It shaves a little bit of time off of our weekly Sunday morning routine. This week Todd preached about peace. I liked it a lot. I took notes. I listen better when I do that. I joined the Lindley Park Community Group for music in the park at Friendly Sunday night. It was fun. There were just bands playing and we got to hang out, listen, eat, and get coldstone afterwards.

Today we met to talk through more planning stuff for OUR GSO. I'm not as overwhelmed. Things are starting to come together. Days are being pieced together. We're getting to the planning of the details and thinking about promotion and tshirts and fun stuff like that. It's not as scary as it was a few weeks ago, because it doesn't seem as big. We are slowly but surely making progress.

I listened to this song today. I liked it a lot. It spoke to a lot of things that I have been struggling with lately. I pray that I would be open like a lake.

so much hurt and preservation

like a tendril round my soul

so much painful information

no clear way on how to hold it

when everything in me is tightening

curling in around this ache

I will lay my heart wide open

like the surface of a lake

wide open like a lake

standing at this waters edge

looking in at God's own heart

I've no idea where to begin

to swallow up the way things are

everything in me is drawing in

closing in around this pain

I will lay my heart wide open

like the surface of a lake

wide open like a lake

bring the wind and bring the thunder

bring the rain till I am tired

when it's over bring me stillness

let my face reflect the sky

and all the grace and all the wonder

of a peace that I can't fake

wide open like a lake

everything in me is tightening

curling in around this ache

I am fighting to stay open

I am fighting to stay open

open open oh wide open

open like a lake